Period Blood

Ok so last blog I was talking about how I got a mooncup and how I was totally excited to use it. Well I started my period today and I was actually in the library so I had to make do with a tampon. But I put the mooncup in tonight at about 11 and since I was planning to stay up and do homework (or blog) I decided I would empty it before I went to bed and then wear it overnight. The mooncup is probably the most amazing feminine hygeine product ever to be invented. I actually don't like the words "feminine hygeine" I think it makes women feel that there is something dirty or wrong about their vagina if it doesn't smell like a summer breeze or spring rain or whatever the douches (literally and figuratively) tell you a vagina should smell like. Anyhow, after practicing putting it in and getting it out (like I said before tight pussy) I was super excited to try it. After a false start and my little shimmy shake it dance I always seem to have to do after I insert it, I finally got it in and I couldn't even feel it which was awesome because it sits waaayyy lower than a tampon (the very bottom sits JUST inside the vagina, but nothing actually sticks out). So I was actually super duper excited to empty it even though I was having a pretty light day. Now, this may sound weird, but I was actually fascinated at what my period blood would look like. I have had my period for almost almost 8 years so I have seen my period blood before, but it's always been in pad or a tampon and it's always beeen something I was eager to throw away or hide or make sure had not leaked anywhere. I've used tampons for the last 6 years and I have never really taken the time to look at my tampons before so I was actually kind of curious to see what it would be like unabsorbed, straight from the source. I sat on the toilet to remove it because I was unsure how full it actually was and I didn't want to spill it out everywhere and when I took it out and poured out the blood into the toilet, I was totally fascinated. It was almost like I reached in and took out a part of myself and could look at who I was and where I came from. A lot of people think period blood is gross, but it's not. It's beautiful. It's life. It's not like any other bodily fluid, it's not like urine or the blood that you encounter when you scrape your knee or any other type of fluid people usually hesitate to come in contact with, it's so much more than that. As the blood began to swirl around in the toilet bowl, I actually looked at it. It wasn't like normal blood, it was heavier and there were particles of tissues like little red spiderwebs floating in the clear water. It didn't gross me out. In fact, for the first time I actually wanted to celebrate the fact that I had my period. I wanted to celebrate the fact that I was a woman and that I had such an awesome gift inside me that was capable of this amazing feat of nature. I have never condsidered my period beautiful. I have come to not mind it as much over the years, but I have never considered it a desirable thing. While I would not want to have more than one a month, I no longer think of it as an inconvenience. I do not agree that women are just uteruses waiting for a baby to be made so they can fulfill their ultimate role as a female, but seeing the way my body creates and rids itself of something so vital to my identity as a female human being is truly amazing. In some way, seeing my period blood has made me appreciate myself as a woman. It has made me become more in touch with my own body. It has made me appreciate my body and how amazing it is, how it works all according to some plan of the universe. Anyway, yah! period blood